When did I get so old?
I’m seriously having a bit of a crisis here.
When I was fresh out of college, my best friend Lori and I took an amazing trip to Europe that I still remember clear as day. We met some amazing friends on that trip, friends who were in the same boat as us: fresh out of college, excited to explore, and not quite sure what life had in store for us.
Fast forward about a bajillion years to today, and I just found out one of those friends just got married. I don’t know why this hit me so hard, because he’s not the first out of that group to get married. And it’s not even the fact that he got married that bothers me (If you’re reading this Jessie, Congrats friend!!), it’s the fact that it makes me feel really, really old.
Stalking him on facebook Looking at the pictures, it suddenly hit me that that trip was not just yesterday. It was a long freaking time ago. I look like a baby in our pictures from that trip, and although I don’t feel that much older, pictures of me now tell a much different story (Hello, wrinkle face!).
Ok ok. I know I’m not that wrinkly. But it’s like I just woke up one day and had crow’s feet.. and WTF is that all about.
And the thing is, everyone lately is getting married (or divorced) or having babies. I really sometimes feel like I’m the last person on this earth who isn’t married or with child (not that there’s anything wrong with that!) But it’s everywhere I turn: facebook, twitter, bumping into old friends on the street. And the strangest part about it is that it’s not weird. I’m now at the age where it’s normal to be surrounded by all that. I’m just wondering when that happened?
I don’t feel that much older than I was when I graduated from college. Although my random aches and pains may tell you otherwise, it doesn’t seem possible that we’re closing in on a decade since I was showing up to NU hockey games in body paint with a flask in my purse (Sorry, Mom!) Sure, I guess I’m a little bit wiser, and I know I’ve been successful, but I really still feel like a young kid who just happens to have a pretty cool job.
Side note: I was at a friends house recently, and we were talking about Eye Creams. EYE CREAMS. She even showed me hers. Seriously? When did I get so old.
I don’t even really know what my point is in writing this. I guess I’m just wondering if others out there feel the same way? Just like some people are “old souls”, I think I’m a “young soul”. I’m pretty sure my grandmother still feels like she’s 25 deep down inside, so maybe it’s in my genes. All I know is, acting your age is totally overrated. The other day, one of my athletes told me that I was what would happen if a 13 year old graduated from an athletic training program. Now, we all know how I feel about 13 year olds (ick), but I’ll take it. If I’m 13 now, does that mean I’ll still pretty much be in my 20s when I’m close to retirement age? Sounds good to me!
Do you feel older or younger than your biological age? Have you ever been told you’re an “old soul”? If you could stay one age forever, what would it be?